In each Sikh’s life there comes a time when he realizes he is only worthy of Guru Ji, no one else. It is common for us to think that because we are full of sins, we are not worthy of Guru Ji but Guru Ji through Bhai Joga Singh Ji teaches us otherwise. Bhai Joga Ji teaches us to serve Guru Ji, to learn from our mistakes and to never forget what we are worthy of.
Everyone has their own ways of serving Guru Ji and they are all correct if done with a pure heart. Bhai Joga Ji stayed with Guru Ji and served him in person, I serve him through my writings. It gives me so much pleasure to write about Sikhi because I learn so much about Guru Ji and Sikhism. Each writing is a lesson to me, a reminder of what Sikhism is all about. I had begun to write purely for myself and it grew to something that I write for anybody that wants to read. As it grew, it became a seva and I had to be more careful as to what I write, so that I never write anything disrespectful about Sikhism or Guru Ji. Sometimes when I write, I get praised and that praise builds ego within.
When you do seva, sometimes you are filled with much pride and ego. That was the case with Bhai Joga Singh Ji when he left his wedding to go back to Guru Ji but then on the way decided to stop at a prostitute’s home as a way to reward himself. And that was my case this weekend, I had been writing a lot and thought I deserved to take a break and go to a concert against the advice of the Gursikhs in my life. So to the concert I went, filled with ego for being so good and trying to follow Sikhi. I had dressed in my best clothes and tied my favorite turban…everything was perfect. The concert started with me in the second row, wondering if Gurdas Mann would notice the only turbaned girl in the room. I sat all filled with pride and ego. Then magic happened and Guru Ji intervened. Just like Guru Gobind Singh Ji had stood guard at the Prostitute’s home to scare Bhai Joga Ji away from making the mistake, he came to stand guard for me. Not even one song in, my view got ruined by a couple that came and sat in the front row. The whole time this couple was acting in a very non-sikh way and non-punjabi way. The whole time I ended up watching them and thinking what am I doing here. So like Bhai Joga Ji was stopped by Guru Ji from going in, I was stopped from watching the concert and being filled with ego.
Guru Ji broke my ego in a sweet way, just like Guru Ji did with Bhai Joga Singh Ji. With Bhai Joga Ji, he told him that he was at guard himself and made him realize what a mistake he was about to make. With me he showed me the wrong of my going to the concert, against the wishes of Gursikhs. The concert was wrong I realized because of the type of Sangat it surrounded me with. Every time I would look up I would see the couple, not the singer. Every time I would look around me I would see people pointing at the couple and laughing or I would see the drunks. I eventually ended up closing my eyes doing simran and asking for Waheguru Ji’s forgiveness for not listening to the Gursikhs. And as I sat there I realized Guru Ji wasn’t trying to make me feel bad or guilty. That’s not what Guru Ji does, he just loves.
Guru Ji in his loving manners stops us from making mistakes; we just have to ask him to do so. I had asked Guru Ji to help me become a good Gursikh and avoid things that would be a hindrance in the process. Guru Ji did not block my view; he opened my eyes to see the stuff around me that my ego was blocking out. I will not be attending any more concerts in the future because I am no longer blinded by the ego within me. Guru Ji opened the eyes of Bhai Joga Singh Ji and he realized he was joga (worthy) just of Guru Ji. Guru Ji is slowly opening my eyes and making me realize my true worth. I hope one day soon with no ego or pride, I can truly say I am worth only Guru Ji.
I would recommend every Sikh read Sikh history along with Gurbani as it opens our eyes to much around us. With our eyes open we can see the lessons Guru Ji is trying to teach us.